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Romantic commitaphobe
passionately quiet
gracefully awkward
half-empty optimism
insanely normal
cheerfully dark
imperfected porcelain
This is a home for my thoughts, opinions, creativity, nonsense, and fears.. enjoy.
to write down. i dont even know where to start.
*julia, i miss you so much. this was too sudden. you were 13. thats too young to die. im so sorry i didnt know sooner, im so sorry i lost touch with your family. i love you all so much. even though i havent seen you in years, i remember seeing you last like it was yesturday. im glad youre not in pain anymore. youre a beautiful girl and ill always love you.
*I want to be with you. youre kind, understanding, loving, obnoxious, and hysterical and i miss you. i dont know how to say what i feel, because whats going on now makes sense, its logical and honestly i understand because i feel what you do now. but, what if we could have more time together in the future? id want this to become something more. i think about you frequently, you fit into everything that works for me. ive been through too much sorrow to rush and to ruin. i just need your embrace telling me that everything is going to be okay. even if it wont be.
*Youre engaged, yet ive been blown away by you for quite some time. i feel as if i have a chance, but i know there shouldnt be one. and i dont know how to stop myself from all of this. its rediculous and completley unrealistic. yet we talk frequently now and its turning into something more then what it was a year ago. i hate this, but i need it. ill regret nothing happening for the rest of my life, while also hating myself for something happening for the rest of eternity.
